Fall is upon us again, I feel like so much has changed in just a year.
I remember flying to Montana last year to spend part of October there. I interviewed at the hospital for a job, looked into colleges, and thought I’d be married by now.
Thank the Lord for not allowing that to happen.
This year, I’m wrapping up my summer at the farm and easing into the fall with my dear friends and family. I have been blessed with new friends in the Catlett family and must say that I surrender all of my relationships, including mine with Caleb, to Christ.
I had the chance to go on ministry with Caleb and his family this weekend, to Nebraska. What a lovely small town with such kind people. It was such a good trip, in that the Lord really challenged me to surrender my entire life to him – AGAIN. Yes, I’ve done this before, but truly living for Christ involves surrender time and time again. The Lord sacrificed his life for me, and through Liz, he taught me that he wants us to sacrifice our relationships with earthly things/beings for him. This is such a small price to pay for what He did for us on the cross. I am finally beginning to understand that all the Lord wants from me is willingness. He may not always ask us to do radical things for him, because he does know our true hearts desires, but he wants us to be willing to do radical things for him.
Some of the things I’m in the process of surrendering are my relationships with my family: I know that the Lord sees my heart for my family and the genuine love I have for them. He knows I want to be near them, He knows I want my grandchildren to spend time with my parents, He knows all of these things – but am I willing to surrender them for His calling? A calling of higher purpose? The truth is, I am, and have found that because I trust that the Lord knows my heart and wouldn’t call me to ever completely leave my family I can surrender them to him.
He wants me to surrender my identity in my career. I struggle to continue finiding my identity in Him and the person he created me to be, aside from what I do at my job.
He wants me to surrender my heart and trust Him and those who love me. I often times have tricked myself into thinking that I have surrendered my heart and all of a sudden its like - Wow! I am not trusting anyone - even Christ.
What is God calling you to be willing to surrender or sacrifice for him right now?
You can visit the ministry of Caleb’s familys’ website at:
http://www.cat-logs.com/mark4/index.shtml
